Relationship

路上看到一个长得很像认识的人的人 结果不是
吃奥灶面 把熏鱼骨头吞下去了 没卡住
做梦 梦到买定制衣服 满400免单398，我挑了3件，还有谁挑了4件，只要付8块多
好像我又想买另一件碧蓝色的小西装 这样就要每人50镑

很久没写字 也很久没blog了
今天晴天 蛮热
某人很七000的 
很久没上线过了 今天上了会 照例没人找着说话

很久没听新歌
最新一集的银魂没有看 听说海贼王不错
早上啃了两截玉米 残骸留在盘子里

as titled

无 话 可 说

词曲  陈楚生
演唱  陈楚生

看样子雨是不会停了
看样子你是不会来了
空气冷冷的
眼泪却热热的
回忆不停重播
心也会不快乐

承诺的话你一定忘了
学不会难过还要装作洒脱
承认我哭了
真的受伤了
不要谁的施舍
让泪海流到干枯
一个人太寂寞
躲在无人的角落
爱被谁冷落
现在只能沉默
我 无话可说
接受这结果
喜欢你的干净利落
受了点伤其实没什么
最怕是你什么都不说

我 无话可说
爱情太脆弱
你只是个美丽经过
我不该奢求太多 那是错
就算错也错得那么值得

一般来说这时候 总该总结下什么 回顾下什么
然而这一年却不太好回顾
我与09年说不清道不明的

don get it wrong~
get over it.
it's over.
long long ago.
i can't pretend for whatever reason.
but it's just another disaster.

it should be forbidden to mention.
likewise, i made such mistake like i could never get it right.
why?
why me ?
why why why?
what the hell I should be innocent, I must be down to hell like anyone else should do.
I wanna be right.

我只是想简单点
结束的不要死灰复燃
过去的不要像噩梦一样缠绕

能不能让我简单的 很幸福

就像已经很多年没有生的冻疮一样 
我不想再患上那种disease.

若无其事~
狼狈~
那个莫名其妙的下午，天气似乎不很爽朗，一个人，拎着该买和不该买的东西，像游魂般荡在商场之间
遇见了那谁，和那谁的妈妈

只记得狼狈这个词 也许很适应于当时的感觉吧
失语的我
大袋小袋的感觉

落寞寞出了mall之后，也是百无聊赖的
只记得那黄昏
昏暗到忘了我是谁

注解下狼狈
就像什么都没做对的自己，突然碰到了半生不熟的熟人，然后尴尬的说再见之前，几乎是无语的感觉

也许本身只是个空空的躯壳，注入了一丝微笑，几滴眼泪，若干颜色
太多记忆都是餐具，活着的杯具，都是器具般的存在感

Well, I don know what to say. basically I don't.
I don't wanna talk about it.
so I avoid talking, I guess.

had some stir prawn, fried veg with egg noodles. not bad.

Hey man, it's not cool. what else should I say.
Well, I ll go on my way, and u go another.

It was snowning last night, it's full of snow on the road today.
Cracking the snow, temp dropping down, but I don feel cold at all.

all the meaningless...

er.... ... who the hell r u? do I know u?
It's complicated, I don wanna explain at all.

Lily Allen - The Fear

I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don't care about clever I don't care about funny
I want loads of clothes and fuck loads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them

I'll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
Cuz everyone knows that's how you get famous
I'll look at the sun and I'll look in the mirror
I'm on the right track yeah I'm on to a winner

I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
Cuz I'm being taken over by The Fear

Life's about film stars and less about mothers
It's all about fast cars and passing each other
But it doesn't matter cause I'm packing plastic
and that's what makes my life so fucking fantastic
And I am a weapon of massive consumption
and its not my fault it's how I'm program to function
I'll look at the sun and I'll look in the mirror
I'm on the right track yeah I'm on to a winner

I don't know what's right and what’s real anymore
I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
Cuz I'm being taken over by The Fear

Forget about guns and forget ammunition
Cause I'm killing them all on my own little mission
Now I'm not a saint but I'm not a sinner
Now everything is cool as long as I'm getting thinner

I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
Cause I'm being taken over by Fear

 

it's weird.
it's a weird dream.
should n't be like that way.
but whatever.3

i ll be home soon, and not leaving this time.
Staying...

kinda of unknown ahead...

wish i can get a nice job, n living peacefully.

Hey bro, are you doing all right
no matter what happened, in heart I m always supporting you.
Even I do that acting like I never care.
Cause I think leave you alone is the best way I could do.
Distant bro~ maybe even more like stranger.
忘记吧 若可以
也算是一种幸运
如果一人的心]
只能烧出一个名
take care bro.
Since I am leaving, I guess we will never see each other any more.
SAYUNALA

任贤齐-《兄弟》

轻轻的风
像旧梦的声音
不是我不够坚强
是现实太多僵硬
逆流的鱼
是天生的命运
不是我不肯低头
是眼泪让人刺痛
忘记吧 若可以
也算是一种幸运
如果一个人的心
只能烧出一个名
两个人要去到哪里
牵着两手就是个天地
一生啊有什么可珍惜
流浪人没奢侈的爱情
有今生 今生作兄弟
没来世 来世再想你
漂流的河
每一夜 每一夜下着雨
想起你

轻轻的风
像旧梦的声音
不是我不够坚强
是现实太多僵硬
逆流的鱼
是天生的命运
不是我不肯低头
是眼泪让人刺痛
忘记吧 若可以
也算是一种幸运
如果一个人的心
只能烧出一个名
两个人要去到哪里
牵着两手就是个天地
一生啊有什么可珍惜
流浪人没奢侈的爱情
有今生 今生作兄弟
没来世 来世再想你
漂流的河
每一夜 每一夜下着雨
想起你
有今生 今生作兄弟
没来世 来世再想你
海上的歌
飘过来 飘过去
黑暗里的回音

忘记吧 若可以
也算是一种幸运
如果一个人的心
只能烧出一个名
两个人要去到哪里
牵着两手就是个天地
一生啊有什么可珍惜
流浪人没奢侈的爱情
有今生 作兄弟
没来世 来世再想你
漂流的河
每一夜 每一夜下着雨
想起你
有今生 今生作兄弟
没来世 来世再想你
海上的歌
飘过来 飘过去
黑暗里的回音
漂流的河
每一夜 每一夜下着雨
想起你

 

Finally I made up the mind to withdraw from all those stuff.
I should have realised it much sooner.
I am no longer fit in the schedule of study.
as follows, 
just what to do...
hope such a relief will make my life easier.
Still there's a smell of uncertainty

don think too much, just act on it.